It's been a while since my last post. I've been blogging for almost ten years so I know that life goes on and it's OK to be MIA for a while. This past year's been challenging and finding time to write/post has been difficult.
This is my beautiful mother. If you've followed this blog for a while, you know that my mum is a HUGE part of my family. My mum is from a remote town in Quebec, Canada (the smallest municipality in Canada!) It's my favorite place but winters can be tough. We were lucky to have her spend 4-6 months with us each winter allowing her to be a part of my girls' lives and a big part of A Muse. Two years ago she moved in with us permanently.
A few years ago, my mum started becoming forgetful. Aren't we all a bit forgetful? She'd walk into the kitchen and forget why she was there. I've done this! She'd say inappropriate things once conversations got beyond friendly chit chat. She didn't know what day of the week it was but heck when I'm on vacation I don't know this either. Then she got Shingles and the pain was disorienting. My family who lived near her tried to help but it was too much. She couldn't cope and she finally agreed to move in with us.
Despite my close relationship with my mother - we'd speak on the phone every day, she'd spend 4-6 months with me in the winter and I'd spend a month with her in the summer - I never imagined that she had serious cognitive problems. She hid them well. Once she moved in with us though it was immediately apparent that something was not right. She would leave her bedroom to go to the bathroom and not know how to get back to her bedroom!
She was soon diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease.
What a horrible disease! It's terribly sad to watch someone you love no longer be able to do the things they once loved: baking, knitting, card making, puzzles, sewing, send email, surf the internet and so much more! Even "basic" things like using the telephone and the television are way too complicated.
Last week, we moved my mum to a nursing home in Toronto. It was a hard (!) decision but she needs round the clock care and constant supervision now. We've been fairly devastated by this loss but know that she is in a beautiful place with wonderful caregivers and my sister lives close by.
We've been lucky to have her with us for so many years. My girls lives have been enriched by her love and constant presence. She helped my youngest daughter make "A Muse Cake" - a recipe that included 6 cups of butter and five cups of sugar - by gently suggesting some changes to the recipe. She's been to countless dance and school performances, endured fancy hairdos at the hands of budding young stylists and knitted and sewed too many outfits to count... first for her granddaughters and later for their dolls! It's been challenging at times but I am so glad that she was able to be with us.
My mum is always eager for an adventure. She somehow managed to get into the boat a few weeks ago.
On our *long* drive to Toronto, she enjoyed stopping at Niagara Falls.
One of the good things about Alzheimer's is that everything is new again! Despite having been to Niagara Falls countless times before, my mum swore it was her first time. She would also tell me that she loved every meal I cooked and that it was the first time she'd ever eaten it.
I miss her.
I'll be back to posting crafty stuff soon. My mum taught me every crafty thing I know.